The longer ago an event occurred, the less accurately we can remember it. The memories that remain are usually fragmentary or concern events that were very emotional for us. A particularly nice vacation, a great party at the university, the loss of an important person, your own wedding - all examples that we can usually remember for a long time, even if not in all details.
But what if you have such fragmentary memories that you have certainly not experienced in this life and that you have not seen in a movie?
That's how I felt with some memories that I just couldn't classify. The memories became particularly intense and also more numerous after I had met Phoenix.
I saw myself standing in rags with bare feet in the snow. I felt myself freezing to death outside in the cold. I experienced how I was threatened by a group of people and pelted with stones. And I constantly had in front of my eyes how Phoenix lies covered in blood in front of me and dies – while at the same time he sat next to me, completely healthy and happy.
In addition, there were physical sensations, such as an absolute aversion to collars that were too tight, which reminded me of a gallows, or panic fear of false accusations or the loss of housing or food.
For a long time, I dismissed these images in my head as fantasies. At some point, however, I told Phoenix that I constantly saw him dead in front of me, and to my great surprise, he was able to describe the same situation to me that I saw myself, but from his perspective. Our stories complemented each other to form a whole: I saw him lying in front of me covered in blood and dying, he knew that he had just been shot in the chest and died, while I was with him and cried in despair.
Little by little, we found more such matches and at some point there was no longer any doubt that we shared memories of previous lives together, usually those that were traumatic for both of us.
Over the years, Phoenix's ability to see other people's lives by following the energetic trails became more and more pronounced. So he was able to describe to me exactly why I saw myself standing in rags in the snow or who the people were who had thrown stones at me. In the meantime, we have reconstructed several previous lives, know who we were, how we related to each other, and what happened in those lives. The memories that are furthest back for both of us were about 5,000 years ago.
What insights do you take away from this experience?
First of all, you better understand why you have certain dislikes, what karma connects you to others, and that reincarnation is not just a theory of Buddhism. On the other hand, you learn to distinguish which topics you still carry with you in your soul and which are purely based on your current physical existence. In addition, you become much more relaxed in dealing with smaller problems and can more easily let go of things and people that have served their purpose or are not good for you.
After all, you know that everything is transient and that many things do not play such an important role when looking back at the larger whole of your own existence. The more insight one has into previous lives, the clearer it becomes to one that everything ultimately only serves the spiritual development, in order to approach the wisdom of the universe and fulfill the purpose of the universe.
Black Dragon
